Sunday, December 26, 2010

Ok, this is it!!

well Christmas is over, and what a merry one this was!  We finally were able to share our great news with family (and now friends) and i feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders!  ahhhh... sigh.... ahhh... its good to not have to lie about my thickening belly and fake drinking alcohol to avoid any weird looks or questions.  WE'RE HAVING A BABY!  there. now that thats done, i will get into what else is going on.

i've been feeling great these last couple weeks. i will be 14 weeks on tuesday, and i think morning sickness has all but left me.  (there are still a few pesky food aversions, but i can deal with that as long as i don't feel like i need to barf at any moment.)  my stomach had been growing a little bit, and from the pictures i've taken every week since we found out, i can definitely tell.. although most probably could not.  some of our aunts told me "oh i can totally tell, i knew it the moment i saw you.." and although i sort of like this, because they now know, i feel a little bit weird about people commenting on the size of my belly.  like i said, i dont think most could tell just by looking at me, so the fact that they say they can tell makes me think that, well i dont know, i was just bigger than last time they saw me and they might think that even if i wasn't prego... i am probably just being weird.  and emotional. ohhh the emotions! i swear nick is walking on eggshells.  he is so afraid something will set me off and i will start bawling for no reason.  its probably best he is concerned, because literally anything can set me off these days.  i started crying in the car the other day listening to a song about a dog buried under a tree.  (side note: why would anyone write that into a song?? it is SAD!!)  so i cried all the way home.  also, when my parents told me they didn't want us to bring my dog to christmas i started crying. uncontrollably.  i had to get off the phone.  then i called nick and ugly cried about it.  i really am a serious piece of work.

i guess this all comes with the territory, so nick and myself had better get used to it... i guess i'd say its worth it :)

Sunday, December 12, 2010

12 weeks (almost)

so today is sunday and on tuesday i will be 12 weeks!  that is a big milestone, and the risk of miscarriage is far less after this point.  I have my 12 week appointment on friday, and hopefully the doc says everything is a-ok.  i am feeling truckloads better than the last post.  my non-barfing-but-still-sicker-than-a-dog morning sickness seems to be ebbing away and i am able to think of most foods without wanting to ralph (this however, does not include chicken, which still makes me nauseous just thinking about it).  i am a little bit less tired than i have been, although because this is sunday and i don't have a whole lot to do, i plan on taking a nap in the near future.

we are getting very excited to tell everyone our big news.  we plan on telling our extended family on christmas and then from there we will tell everyone else.  i really am dying to tell people.  i want to shout it out. whoever's idea this was to wait so long must have been a loonie... oh wait, i think that was me.  but now when i mention maybe telling sooner nick automatically says no.  sigh... ok, two more weeks. i can do it!!!

Sunday, November 28, 2010

Maybe baby?

so i've been quite quiet on this blog for a little while, and while i could talk about my back issues and physical therapy, there is something much more exciting that i haven't been able to talk about that simply trumps anything else that is going on around me.  any number of my friends would automatically say "oh a secret? you're totally pregnant!" because that is pretty much our answer to everything lately.  "i'm feeling sick," "oh you must be prego"; "i am thirsty," "oh you're totally pregnant"; "I am tired," "oh you're definitely prego." at one point everyone i know was getting married, and now it seems like everyone i know is going to have a baby.  AND.... drumroll please??


ahh, it feels so good to get that off my chest!!  lets just say that keeping secrets is not my strong point.  that's not to say i am not a reliable person, but when it's my own secret, and i am this excited about it, well, lets just say i've been dying to tell people.  i tell random people at the grocery store and at restaurants, out walking the dog and at coffee shops (note that these people are all strangers.)  keeping mum to all my friends and most of my family has been so hard!!  luckily i've told only a couple close friends and our parents and siblings, so i have people to talk to about it... and how sick i've been feeling!  ugh, morning sickness is no joke!  and i am not even getting the worst of it (i have yet to throw up, but i have done a lot of dry heaving, and nausea has become my obnoxious neighbor, rearing its ugly head at the worst times.)

at this point i am a few days shy of 10 weeks, but nick and i decided when we found out we were going to wait until at least our 12 week appointment to share the news, and because that is so close to Christmas, why not wait a little longer and tell the family at Christmas and our friends in our Christmas card?? (that was nicks idea, mind you, he likes to say he is like a steel trap, no news is getting out until the designated time)

we have already had some funny moments with friends who didn't know, and we weren't ready to tell yet.  we tried getting pregnant for over a year, and by the time we actually did, quite a few of our closer friends knew.  now they ask us all the time if we are pregnant, and although it is hard, we lie our pants off.  i told one friend i couldn't drink wine when we went to dinner because i had finally gone to the doc and he said i should lay of alcohol and coffee to make me more fertile. *LIE.  i told another friend that i wasn't feeling very well at her halloween party and that's why i wasn't drinking. *LIE.  i lied to my mom when she asked if i was pregnant, and told her, no, but i will let you know as soon as i do. *LIE.  luckily was able to tell my parents and nick's parents when we were about 6 weeks.  that was definitely a load off my shoulders.

ok, so you all must be wondering how i found out? sure you are.  so because my cycles have been irregular since i went off the pill (over a year ago) i would occasionally take pregnancy tests "just in case" because i wouldn't know if i was late.  imagine my surprise when lo and behold there was an extra pink line i was not used to seeing.  so what do i do?  take three more tests of course (one being those digital tests).  yep, pregnant!  nick was at work, and because i didn't want to tell him while he was on shift, i went to Target and got a onesie that said "i love daddy" and some pacifiers.  i wrapped it all up with the pregnancy tests i had taken and waited for him to get home the next morning.  when he began opening the gift in the morning (onesie first) he exclaimed "you didnt!" and because the phrase was a little strange, i said "I didn't what?" with an indifferent look on my face.  nick proceeds to stare down the onesie, and then ask... wait for it... "is this for boston???" boston is our dog.  "no... open the rest" and finally, nick realized that we were pregnant!  i think this is a pretty good story.  i laugh when i tell people, and nick claims he meant "you didnt... get pregnant" but thats neither here nor there.  its a funny story.   More updates to come!

Thursday, October 7, 2010

The pain of it all...

So, yes, i have been neglecting my blogging duties, but lets be honest: this is not my job, nor does anyone really rely on me posting to get through the day, so for now, i'm not worried about it.  i guess i just really haven't had much to say lately... i still don't really.  i haven't been running because i threw my back out (again) and i am finally resigned to going to physical therapy to see if we can't fix this pesky problem i have that seems to come back every few months.  i've been told otherwise, but i seriously think i have sciatica or something.  isn't that something only old people get?  i just hope to get to the bottom of this, or i might subject myself to the embarrassment of getting one of those upside-down-back-pain-cure-machines.
We can be serious and say that i wouldn't look nearly as serene in spandex hanging upside-down, so lets hope we figure out my back issues.  I really was enjoying running, but now i am probably going to have to start that training program from the beginning again (once the back issues are gone) because every week i miss the runs i lose some of my endurance i was building up. suck. 

on a brighter note, i love my profile picture on facebook.  i'm the type of person who always looks at other people's facebook profile pictures and wishes mine look as effortless and candid and artsy.  finally got a good one... mid-dance moves at a wedding. (thanks mesha, i know you're one of the only people reading this post, and you took the picture!)  is it vein for me to want cool facebook photos?  is it stupid i get mad a nick when he takes an artless photo that my mom could have taken?  (don't tell him this). 
this is why i need to have  kids, so i can take artsy photos of THEM.  working on it...

Thursday, August 19, 2010

On the Run

this summer has been so full and busy, its a wonder i'm having time to sit down and write this!  we just got back from maui on monday night and already we're thrown back into the busy life we left for a week.  with a bbq on saturday and parties, showers, babies, and work, i feel like i already need a break!  perfect time to start a new hobby? sure, why not.  

i've talked before about my desire to kick my butt back into shape, and for the most part, i have succeeded in maintaining my not-so-svelte-as-it-used-to-be figure... not bad, but i am going to do something crazy, something i've never done or had any interest in before- running.  now i am not training for a marathon or anything, like some of my crazy friends.  my goal is realistic; i found a website that gives a training course to go from the couch to a 5k in about 2 months. i am impressed that it is actually working, so far anyways.  when i started, (this is a little embarrassing to say) i could not run for a minute without being ready to keel over.  i now am three weeks in and i can run for 3 minutes at a time.  The program is interval training so it is really do-able.  i know i should probably give myself a bigger goal, like running in an actual organized 5k, but at this point, my hope is just to be able to run for about 30 minutes and not stop.  where we go from there, time will tell.  

Thursday, June 24, 2010

East Coast Adventure

it's been a while since i last blogged.. and that is because we've been across the country visiting the east coast.  we figured now would be the best time to see some of this beautiful country, so we packed up and hightailed it over to Boston, New York, and DC.  sort of an "our nation's old and interesting places" tour.  It sounded like fun, and it really was, in Boston and New York.  lots of sightseeing, walking, eating, walking, sleeping, walking... but by the time we got to DC it was more like this: sweating, walking, sweating, walking, sweating, eating, sweating, walking, sleeping, sweating, walking, sweating... you get the picture.  at 90+ degrees and around 100% humidity, i am not really sure how people who live there deal with it!!! I was so hot and sweaty i literally sweated through a few shirts.  gross.  so, needless to say, DC was not as much fun as i had hoped.  my feet were tired, we were hot and sticky, and we (nick) were beginning to get on each other's (my) nerves.  we are sooooo happy to be home, where 70 degrees is just warm enough.

on another note, i have found a new appreciation for nick's job:  most people say "oh it must be so hard having nick gone for whole days at a time"  well, no its not hard.  in fact, i really enjoy it.  by the end of our 10 day trip i was just excited to be in a different room than him.  that is not to say that i don't love him with all my heart, or that i didn't have fun on our trip, but i just really appreciate my personal quiet time.  that doesn't make me a bad wife, does it??  hopefully you are not shocked by my honesty.

Here are a few photos from the trip:

 Boston Common

hooker entrance? that's just inappropriate.

Battle of Bunker Hill memorial

this is about halfway up the 275 steps of the Bunker Hill Memorial... Ugh.

Times Square

At the Capitol

Saturday, May 22, 2010

Living the Sweet Life

spring has sprung, and it has been very nice (by northwest standards).  we've been working in the yard a ton, and our efforts are beginning to pay off.  all the plants we bought as tiny starts are beginning to mature, so now our yard doesn't look so sparse.  my goal in the end is to have a lovely full, lush garden, not a whole lot of empty space... so, we're getting there.

in addition to working in the garden, maybe spring has affected me in other ways.  i've been exploring other blogs that focus on cooking and entertaining and i found a little gem of a blog called "not so humble pie."  on this blog Ms. Humble tries out all sorts of recipes, mostly sweet things, and blogs about them.  this week i tried her recipe for fluer de sel caramels, and i have to say i really impressed myself!  on to bigger and better things from here?  we'll see.  here is a look at what i made:

delicious, really.  they were soft and chewy, with the salt on top brining out the best of it.. ahh melt in your mouth.  i could probably eat all of them, and since the recipe made about 60, i am being a good girl and giving them out to family and friends.  (yes, p90x is still going -sort of- strong).

you may notice these photos make you want to walk around in my yard and sit down at my kitchen table and eat something.  this is most likely because i have been playing around with my new camera!  it is so much fun and takes great photos.  The depth of field is so much fun to play around with... here is my nugget baby boston:

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

snap happy

we just got a new digital slr camera...  i am so pumped to be able to use it!  we actually got it for free, if you can believe it.  our checking account acquires points as we spend money and over the last few years we accrued enough to "buy" this bad boy... so we did.

i haven't actually had a real photography lesson since 7th grade in mister gernon's photo class, and my last photography class taught more the composition of a picture than how to actually use the camera, but i think i might take it up again as a hobby.  if anything i hope to be able to take fun pictures of my children (when i have children--i'll be practicing, so when the get here i'll be ready).

i think the best part about this camera is experimenting-- the last slr camera i had was not digital, so i never really knew what i was getting until the film is developed.  now i am able to see instantly how much i suck... but also learn immediately how to correct the problem.  this is especially helpful, seeing as i am going to be teaching myself (well, myself and my brother, who is more or less doing it as a profession--ok, less).  wish me luck! (luck with the photography... AND with the P90X that i have started again with Nick... ugh.)

Monday, April 19, 2010

Let Me Just Say... I LOVE the Library

let me just say that i love LOVE bloggers new template stuff.  i can do way more than i really know how to do and look cooler doing it now that there are all sorts of picture and layouts i can choose from.  i just got inspired by some of the patterns there were so i changed up my blog.  prettier, don't you think? i do.

i've been reading a lot lately, both actually reading and listening to books on CD.  the library is my new best friend.  i haven't been this excited to go there since i was 7 and my mom let me pick out 5 books to bring home for a week.  i have a closet book fetish (whoops, out of the closet now).  i love books, but i realized i cannot afford a new book every week or so.  thus, my bi-weekly (or more) trips to the library.  more than just a place to pick up something i've requested, i find that the library helps me to decompress  after a long day at work... well not so long as most people's days, but for me... eh. i'll stop trying to make excuses about that.  anyways, i often find myself going to the library and walking through the aisles looking at book titles just for the fun of it.  does this make me strange?  i guess its a cheep habit, so nick can't complain, especially if i get dinner on the table at a reasonable hour.

some of the books i've read lately...

Her Fearful Symmetry Audrey Neffeneger - a really good, dark story about twins, a cemetery, and ghosts. i read it strait through.

The Lace Reader Brunonia Barry - set in Salem, Mass, this story was really interesting in the details of Ipswitch lace, and the story was completely turned around at the end with a twist that i never saw coming.

Sarah Addison Allen is an author that I have been enjoying lately, too.  Her stories have a whimsical twist on a normal small town. I really love her writing style. It makes me want to move to the south and open up a candy shop.  The Sugar Queen, Garden Spells, and The Girl Who Chased the Moon.

Right now I am working on a book called the Physick Book of Deliverance Dane by Katherine  Howe, and The Last Song by Nicholas Sparks, which are both very good so-far.

Saturday, March 13, 2010

Are We Done Yet?

lately we've been working on fixing up the house. by lately, i mean since we moved in, and by fixing up the house, i mean beginning with one project that leads to another project that leads to another project.  for example:

we (nick, not i) decided we needed new interior doors in the house. ok, fine. but because we needed new doors we needed new trim. ok, fine. but because nick got the trim in halfway before i got home, i made him take it out and do it again with another type of trim (that covered the gaps in the wall). ok, fine.  when the trim went in we began the process of finishing the work by caulking, sanding, etc.  who knew home depot would give you false information??? we made a mess of one section of trim and gave up. ok, fine.... until 6 months later i could no longer stand looking at unfinished trim. i threatened to hire someone, which, in turn got us motivated to finish it. ok, fine. trim is done, but we decided that if we are going to finish and paint the house, we might as well paint the rest of the interior of the house, right? ok, fine. so we picked out paint colors and bought paint to swatch the wall with. looks great.... until we paint the whole wall and realize it isn't exactly what we were hoping for. ok, fine. back to home depot for more paint. i'll tell you right now, blue is not the right color for the kitchen. don't ask why, its just not. i've been painting all day and because the blue was SO dark, it definitely needs another coat... so maybe this project might be finished tomorrow.... that, or i will pass out from sucking fumes for the last 3 weeks.

all i can say is... are we done yet?

Wednesday, February 17, 2010


I just looked at my last post and got a little depressed... just an update, after that I cleaned the house, the dog got her walk, and well,  I didn't work out, but like I said, my life is a work in progress.   And hey, two out of three is pretty good, if I do say so myself.

But in all seriousness, I SERIOUSLY need to get into better shape.  Over the past, say, two years or so I have gained some weight, and well... I've gone soft.  Conveniently two years ago is when I got married, so it must be Nick's fault right?  Not all the four course meals I slave over in the kitchen striving for wifely perfection.  The main goal right now is to be healthier.

Back in April we bought P90X, which is a set of work out DVDs.  I know, I know... from TV? REALLY?  Because I am being SERIOUS here, I will tell you that it is a hell of a work out, and for the one month that we did it I really saw results.... then life caught up and we got distracted and didn't finish the program.  At the beginning of the year we said we would start again, however I have been having some back issues.  I keep telling myself it is getting better, but then just when I think I am in the clear, the pain strikes again and I am hobbling around like a nut.  I finally called the chiropractor today and guess what?  They are closed until tomorrow.  So I guess that is going to wait one more day.  At the rate I am going here I'm not going to start this workout program until JUNE!

I've got to get myself together.

If you're interested in this P90X I speak of here is a link

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

On a sunny day...

My house is a mess. I have a cold. My back hurts. Its REALLY nice outside.

Essentially, I haven't done very well with my resolutions to keep clean, stay healthy, or work out.  Plus my dog hates me because I won't take her on a walk.

My life is a work in progress...

Saturday, January 30, 2010


So Nick and I just got back from an amazing trip with amazing friends.... It would have been fun anywhere, but we were on Maui! Ahhhh... just the thought of it now sends the scents of sun screen and saltwater my way, and really, I should think about this more often, because as I sit here, I am staring out at the drizzly, sprinkly, wet, Northwest weather. It was a nice change to say the least. Pretty much the only thing I missed was my dog... so that says a lot.

Alas, here we are back at home, and I guess being on the beach at the beginning of a new year gave me time to plan all the great things I'd like to accomplish in the New Year. For example: We have about a zillion unfinished projects around the house that need to get done... my car is a disaster and hasn't been washed for about 6 months... those work-out DVDs I swore I would use are sitting on the shelf (I only made it a third of the way through). To be concise- I just need to make some things happen. I think my New Years resolution will be to follow through with things. I'll let you know if it goes well... if not, I'll probably stop writing in this blog and you'll be able to guess how it went.

Happy New Year!